Warped Wrapping

Raise the temperature beyond the level of comfort. Make the mind stew with thoughts and ideas that need not exist. Feed the beat and feel the flow. Nothing left but letting go. The current is solid and already set on course. Follow through with no remorse. Connection and chemistry mixed with musical collaboration. Mental, spiritual, essential inspiration.

Be dammed the mind that dwells within this skull. Ideas never ending and countless flaws. Falling apart, becoming undone. Silence is far from being found. Gravity poses no threat to the air. For most of these words, I'm sure no one cares.

Coherent Chaos

What satisfies the human soul? Money exists. Romance exists. Violence exists. The level of importance each serves is generally defined by one's perception. Which is nothing more than a collection of our own comprehension,  be it visual, emotional, maybe observational ideals.

Life is what we make of it. 

~Embrace your Essence~

One Step Closer

Feel the world crumble below your feet as you venture towards the edge of the cliff. Nothing is more real than knowing that it is all about to end. Reality is nothing but a series of ideas gathered and sorted by one's own mind. Forget what makes you hurt and focus on the things that life you up. Negative energy will destroy a dream, and if it doesn't do that, it will certainly delay the act of reaching for it. Don't loosen your grip if you know what you want, unless it is completely unattainable. Then maybe it is time to reevaluate your goals or the path that you are walking. No more crying over things you cannot change, instead embrace the things that you take for granted... like breathing, I like that shit. You should too. Music... without it, many people wouldn't have release from anxiety or sadness, maybe even anger.

If you know the burner is hot do not place your bare hand upon it.

Traverse the Darkness

Once again the silence beckons. Dancing upon the twilight hour as if there will be no tomorrow. Fear not the possibility of that unless you have given up on those dreams that hold you together. Gather the notes and organize your words before the refrain is finished. You may repeat, but do not do so indefinitely. Forgive the pain for it creates strength. Acknowledge agony but do not let it control you. Chaos is what has birthed this evening. Let it find you another mind. Bring you into an alternate reality where happiness can be found by simply opening your eyes. If you are lucky enough to give into your imagination then believe in yourself and see how far you can fly. You need no wings, only trust in the wind to carry you further from the ground than gravity's pull.

Caress the void once more, let it fill your veins with the madness of rhythm and let your chorus be heard all around the world.

Valiant Consequence

No more twisting
Everything has stalled
Dreaming of the silent peace
That had me climbing up the walls
Torment fuels the massive hurt
Cherish those moment before it turns
Nothing works as expected
Even dry ice creates a burn
Forget what you know
Remember everything new
Dragging below the shallow surface
Drinking up the dew
No twilight melody to calm the storm
Nothing to cure the view

Heart

What is a heart? Other than the center of and motor for the vascular system. Emotions are not really attached to it, yet the chest tightens when it hurts emotionally. Breathing fails, rate increases exponentially. Forget everything you know. I am not real.

Landscape

Poignant view
Of what is you
Nothing left
That dreams can do
Falling apart
Folding away
Stealing what once
Left of today
No more peace
Holding tight
Nothing staying night to night
Finding strength in being alone
Torment suffers and sings along
Tears fall down
Forgotten memories fade
Reality sets in again
It is no longer yesterday
The sun shall rise
Sleep shall fail
Security seeks commitment
Expecting bail
Caged inside
Walls caving in
Breathing so sporadically
Grasping my chest
This might be
My final breath

Tick-Tock

Watching a clock turn
Feeling the mind bleed
Longing for eternal burn
Creating only what I need
Silent melodies dance
While psychotic rhythms bounce
There remains no more calm
Shaking and ready to pounce
Trembling from existence
Fading into the floor
No longer is there voices
I can't hear them anymore

Soul-less

Emptied out once again
No place left to begin
I cannot fight my thoughts
I'd rather keep on feeling lost
Cut me open
Watch me bleed
There's nothing left to take from me
I alone have made this hell
I alone is the one to dwell
Venture not within my grasp
I will most certainly destroy your ass
Your mind and soul will burn away too
It is not something I can undo
Words I cannot retrieve from yesterdays past
My head full of haze from a solid blast
In need of chemicals to escape
I no longer wish for this, my fate
Let me rot, and let me die
I will no longer even try
I leave behind my job and more
As I fade into the floor
Alcohol calls me once again
No all I want is to forget
Forget I ever felt alive
Forget I even thought I'd try
Dreaming no more of what's to come
Only dreading what's been undone
There is no reason for you to stay
I am chaos, you should go away
My heart was shattered and then like new
But all I did was mistreat you
I deserve this suffering and pain
I no longer strive for gain
Fill the hole pack it tight
I wish my air to be gone tonight
Do not cry when I am gone
The world will improve
Everyone will move on
Silent tap dance upon my grave
Here lies a soulless one that no one could save

Twisted Methods

Falling backwards once again
Feeding silence to my friend
No more laughter
No more tears
All the remains
Is wrapped in fears
Slightly concussive
From the fall
On the floor
Is where the vodka crawls
Chasing sleep
As if I could find
Someway, somehow
To change my mind
My heart is longing
The soul is sold
Music's grasp
Has taken hold
Burn my flesh
Taste my blood
Along comes the structure
Before the flood
Empty my heart
Let it bleed
For without love
It serves no need
Lifeless corpse
Waiting to rot
I have given
All that that I got
Like it, hate it
Watch it die
This perception
Is through my eye
One is useless
So I don't see
Why the constant
Staring at me
Ignore me now
Let me fade
I was not
Supposed to be made

Agonizing Retreat

Dreaming forlorn
Beginning undone
Nothing remains
The chorus unsung
Ringing so soft
My brain as it bleeds
Stealing away
My sweet melody
Rhythm contrives
Another brigade
Tearing apart
What once I had made
Holding so close
Felling alone
Empty the heart
Until it is stone
Frozen but melting
Fading away
Tomorrow will challenge
A whole other day
Broken apart
Twisted around
If you cannot find me
Just look on the ground
There I will stay
Until the morning dew
Reaching for sanity
My face turning blue
Swallow the air
Let it be known
Agony is company
When you are alone

Unexplainable

Violent streams
Folding the fray
Gouging down
Drown the day
Purple face
No oxygen left
Deep within
Fantasy's kept
Reaching now
Creeping through
Fractured image
Of what to do
Squeezing beyond tight
Never letting loose
Whether one or both
They always leave a bruise
Smiling and bloody
Exhausted and quenched
The hunger still grows
While lying there drenched

Deeming

Dreaming of you
Dreaming of me
What never will
Will always be
Memories flow
Drenching the surface
Magnificent climax
Serving this purpose
Unbelievably lasting
Beyond fantasy's vibe
Never even imagined
Feeling this alive
Breaking the mold
Breathing once again
Ecstasy erupts wildly
Let the new chapter begin

Fated Pain

Fated alone
Along the way
Nothing is left
No music to play
Forgotten verse
Twisted pain
Sharpen the blade
Open the vein
Visions of silence
Tormented inside
Longing to  hold
To feel it collide
Dreaming awake
Stumbling through
Completely lost
Inside of you
Impossible reach
Completely complex
Strangling my will
Choking my neck
Swallowed by this
Unknown word
Longing for beyond
Shattered absurd       

Two's Day

Shattered mind
Falling down
Open arms
Folded now
Cut the vein
Collective bleed
Feeds the demons
Clinging playfully
Holding tight
To the thought
Stretched beyond
Brains can't be bought
Absorb
Retain
Forever reaching in
Melody's contained
Now let it begin

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Sanity's Peak

Carve the knife
Into my soul
There is nothing left
For me to hold
Silent and numbed
Fading away
Insecurities stay
Against the pain
I stand alone
Mentally defeated
I am my clone
Death has taken over
I've fallen beneath
Insanity's screaming
Demanding release
Frigid contemplation
I am over this day
It just begun
Already gone
My reasons
Undone
There can be only one
And one there shall be
After the madness
Has been set free


~§~

Forget

Let go the mental ties
As unity devides the soul
The sunrise takes the pain away
Swallows back the sound
Only few will taste the bite
And of those who do,
Less will know what to do
One sided often as such
Energy transfered by another touch
Gentlely breaking down
And building up again
Forgery of foley
Then inside back when
Gather all your axes
Construction begins now
The universe reveals a sign
You look the other way
Unfortunately this happens
Several times a day
Seasons chase each other
In a similar way
Spring is chasing Summer
Summer after Fall
While Fall gazes at Winter
Winter takes it all
Freezing, chilling, killing things
The whole time it's stalking spring
Humanity is suffering
There seems to be no cure
Emotionlessness is craved
Bones and hearts will ache
Strength, it's our desire
Forgotten by the fire

2014

Here I am sitting on the verge of complete self annihilation and I feel nothing. I am empty... there is no more "try" left in my will. I have tasted my dreams, I have acheived some goals and failed others. One would think that there should exist some sense of accomplishment, however, all I feel is defeat. I long for something that is out of reach, and I am done trying to stretch. The stars can stay in the sky, the moon as well. I have nothing left to inspire my soul. My musical days are limited now to whatever may or may not happen this year. All I can imagine at this point is silence. Before I sleep again I shall drink and drink and drink... Farewell to chasing dreams... off to get myself a factory job, preferably third shift so I don't have to deal with the daylight or humanity in general. I shall spare those around me of my misery by making myself absent from this chapter in life. Turn the page...for this is the end... the binding is falling from this novel, and I see no reason to fix it. Let what is dead be dead and I shall breathe no more.

Situate

Here we find another state of mind. Whether good or bad, the chaos that remains is dwelling within the hardened caves of madness. Waiting to thrive again, it seeks shelter, not knowing what shelter actually feels like. Yesterday's smiles have become empty and dry tears. I am incapable of feeling again. Curiously I sought out emotion and balance...  I found it, but it's not within the grasp of reality. Only dreaming begins such things. Being on the stage, feeling the music flow...  that rush, that high....
I found it.... I held it..... But will I ever again?

Chapter

We are never guaranteed tomorrow. Those moments that tear open your mind and let you truly see yourself are rare, but yet they do exist. I have witnessed my own life take place as if I were the paint on the wall. I hold my dreams and yet I am limited by time. I need ten days in a week..... I'll work on that.